Brynlee is a teenager born and being raised in Utah. She is a happy and energetic young woman. Despite the many challenges and trauma, she has faced in her young life, she has an amazing attitude and outlook on life.
Brynlee experienced a dire situation when her mother tried to commit suicide in her presence. This trauma has left her with questions and mistrust for her mother causing permanent damage to their relationship. I don’t think anyone can really understand the extent of the damage done by such an event. She has tried to speak with her mom about it but she simply dismisses it. Saying that she didn’t really try to do it. This has been extremely hard on Brynlee. She doesn’t understand why anyone would want to end their life especially her mom.
Brynlee’s trauma has given her much strength and a voice to be able to not only talk about the event, but also to be able to reach out to others and let them know that there is help. This is her message; “know that there is always someone to talk to, who can help”. She is speaking to not only people who have experienced a trauma like this, but also to those who feel like they want to commit suicide. She understands how delicate of a situation it is. She has a huge heart and is mature beyond her years.
Brynlee’s biggest concern in life is that her mother will attempt again with or without her there. “What if she tries again, what if she goes through with it?” This is not something a young teenage girl should worry about every time she visits her mom. She wants her mom to know that, “it has hurt me worse than she knows, she better not do it again!” She knows what to do in the event that it happens again. Call the police and get an ambulance, again!
Bryn has been able to speak with trusted loved ones and also to a counselor. She feels that she has been given the tools in which to succeed. She feels that talking about it greatly helps and she finds solace in writing in her journal. She is able to write down her inner most feelings and it helps greatly to get it all out. She engages in her hobby of drawing and playing music to cope. She wants people to know that there is always help. Brynlee shares that as a teenage girl she realizes how to talk, “it may be scary but you must talk it out with someone. Therapists, counselors, friends, parents”. She feels like she has a good support system. Always someone who she can trust and open up to.
She does go through daily challenges, feeling some stress in her everyday life. She has suffered from depressive episodes and that is very overwhelming for her. She often has tightness in her shoulders and neck as well as headaches. She turns to her coping skills to deal with her anxiety. She has it under control with the help of therapy and in writing in her journal finding solace therein. Despite all of this, she feels like she has normal relationships with others. Her friends, those who know about the events of that day, are very understanding and supportive. She thinks that people will feel sorry for her but doesn’t want them to.
More than anything, Brynlee wants to help people. She is sharing this experience to reach out to others who need help. Let us learn from Brynlee’s strength and be there for someone. Let’s talk to those who have had loved ones who commit suicide and be a positive and consoling voice. We need to let those who have attempted suicide know the damage that they have done. Life is so fragile!
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